NEW MUSIC: "Hitch Hiker" - Aubrey O'Day

With her reality show "All About Aubrey" ending in the landing of a record deal with SRC/Universal, new music surfaces from former Danity Kane member Aubrey O'Day. Fans were introduced to the song during the show and it quickly became a favorite track. Now shortly after the release of her first single "Automatic" fans are excited about the song being leaked. 

What do you think? 

"Hitch Hiker" - Aubrey O'Day

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Tamia - If I Were You

Eeek!

I got SCREAMED ON first thing this morning by a friend of mine who I don't get the chance to talk to often. Mad as hell because according to him, since I never call him the only way he's been able to keep up with me was through this blog. I'm sorry Joshua! I've been saying I would get back on here and update but the truth is, i've been BUSY!! I won't promise to do regular updates like I was before but I think I'll have more time post than I did before....

I'll do a quick recap though...

As many of you know, in November my little brother passed away after a battle with cancer. I'm still dealing with it, still trying hard to put on a brave face but I find myself lost in my own thoughts sometimes and out of nowhere I'll just get really sad because I miss him so much. I have days where I deal with it all very well and days where I can't get out of bed because I can't bare to think of him not being a phone call away. 

Thankfully I know that as time goes on, it'll get easier.

Also, at the end of the year I ended up cutting out alot of people in my life. My so called Fab-5 is no more! May They Rest In Peace. (Not individually..but the group itself) I can't say I'm sad about it. Without getting too much into because we have somewhat mended fences and I don't wanna mess it up, I'll just say that I think we all grew up. Life became about more than having fun and watching Bad Girls Club and unfortunately we grew apart. We all had our separate priorities that seemed to take priority over our friendship. :-(

But MOVING ON! 

2011 has brought on a lot of incredible things for me so far! School is wonderful...thankfully I'm gonna be done soon! I've established a great relationship with select members of my fathers side of the family. 3 of my cousins have become like best friends to me. I'm doing what I gotta do at work...I'm horrible at being someones subordinate...it's about time someone was answering to me so I'm working on that. And that's about it guys! Well not totally...there's one more thing but I'm kinda feeling some type of way about it right now so I'm gonna keep quiet until I can sort my feelings...but I'll be back, I promise! 

Willow Smith Signs To Roc Nation?

Yesterday I posted via Facebook a link to Willow Smith's (Daughter of Will and my boo Jada!) debut single "Whip My Hair", personally I LOVE LOVE LOVE the song! I think it's so cute. It's fun and catchy. So I was hooked. But today I find out she's officially been signed to Jay-Z's Roc Naton label. Hello? That's MAJOR! Major! Jay went on to say 

"It’s rare to find an artist with such innate talent and creativity at such a young age. Willow is about to embark on an incredible journey and we look forward to joining her as she grows in all aspects of her career.”

To be acknowledged by Jay-Z in such a way is a big deal because lets face it, he is an amazing artist and even though I can't stand her, look at what he did for Rihanna...even though she shouldn't be, she's a superstar. So imagine what he could do with Willow who actually has some sort of VOCAL ABILITY! 

But I've been hearing a bunch of people talk about, well she's 9! So what!!! Susan Boyle was 46 when she debuted and she sold how many records? Age means nothing, if you got a hit, you got a hit! Whip My Hair has potential to lead to a hit. It's something that's gonna have you notice her. My twitter timeline is full of Willow Smith comments so umm, she must be doing something right! People are saying she's being forced into music. Highly unlikely. Will and Jada seem to be very open when it comes to allowing their children to select their own path and I doubt they are gonna let anyone put their kids in positions in which they don't need to be so this little girl is gonna be okay! 

In the meantime, check out the song and let me know what you think!!!

.::SoloRising::.

Today I was really surprised by all the questions I got from people about my change in twitter name and signature for my outgoing messages. It's now .::SoloRising::. I was shocked anyone said anything because really, who pays attention to the signatures on peoples text messages? LOL! But many of my friends who I talk to on a regular basis were like  'Oh I like that!' or  'What's that about?!?'  

I think SoloRising comes from a place in my life where I'm moving on and trying to do things for myself by myself. In all honesty, it stemmed from  a conversation I had with a friend about how hurt I was about feeling betrayed and neglected by certain friends and family members. Feeling like I try my best to show the very few people I let get close to me  how much they  mean to me and how much I value their place in my life. Trying to do that and it only backfiring or not being reciprocated. Feeling like I try to be so much to so many people and not having that in return, feeling like I deserved that and was made to feel bad for wanting it. It started with being hurt and sad to being extremely angry. From being like "Why don't these people care to have me in their lives like I care to have them in mine?" to "You know what, f*** all of you...I'm done trying to please you damn ingrates!" LOL. Harsh right? I know but it's real. It's how I felt. I didn't really wanna talk to anyone because I felt like I was being fake as hell if I was talking to these people who I was furious with. 

So last night when I was speaking to a friend who I pretty much grew up with, she said "What happened to you? What happened to the Rodney that didn't give a damn who was there or who wasn't because he was gonna do what he wanted?" What DID happen to that guy? I was so secure in my skin, didn't need a damn soul and for damn sure wasn't pressed if people chose not to be around. "Oh you don't wanna be here....Bye!" She said "You gotta get back to that...get back to focusing on you and doing what you wanna do because it's something that you wanna do. Don't worry about hearing from this person or having that person in your corner...those who really matter know who you are and will do what they have to do to show you that they value you, those who don't matter will continue to flutter and end up feeling STUPID when you aren't around and they realize what a good friend they lost"

Umm DUH! So right! I've spent so much time feeling wrapped up in who was there and who wasn't...who I could depend on and who I couldn't...who was in my corner and who was against me. The only person who really matters is ME. I'm the one who has to be happy with me at the end of the day. So SoloRising comes from me deciding to do things on my own. Focus on me, take time to begin doing things that make me happy again, get what I want and evaluate my life. Progression. Furtherance. Independently. Time to rise and take my life back and do it without relying so heavily on others for fulfillment. 

NEW MUSIC: "Can't Be Friends" - Trey Songz

YUUUP!!! 

Earlier this week I posted Trey Songz new album cover for the "Passion, Pain & Pleasure" album coming out on September 14th and I let yall know that Trey just shot the video for Bottoms Up! I've already heard a few songs from the album but today I came across one that really stuck out to me. This new track is to be the second single from the album, it's called "Can't Be Friends". I am so in love with it! It's like "Black Roses Part II" and everyone knows that is without a doubt my favorite Trey track! So this one definitely has my attention! Check it out!

Trey Songz: "Can't Be Friends"

What About Your Friends?!

I'm not even gonna lie, I'm sooooo singing right now! "what about your friendsssss, will they stand and frown, will they let you down!!!" Hahahaha! Sorry, I'm  kinda in a goofy ass mood right now! Forgive me! 

My feelings are so all over the place yall it's unbelievable. In some ways I am feeling really good. I feel like I'm really starting to figure out what I want out of life and I'm trying to get together than plan to make those things happen. And I feel good about that. I'm confident that I can do what I need to do. But at the same time I'm kinda upset because in trying to take my life in a new directions, I had to let go of some of the people who have really been a part of my life for a while. I'm kinda sick about it. I think I've had to let go of a good 5 or 6 people in the last two weeks. I'm not gonna sit here and lie and pretend like it was such a hard thing to do cause it really wasn't. Once I've made up my mind about being done with you...I'm done. But the thing that I'm kinda upset about is the fact that a few of these people are people that I swore would be in my life forever. But when it came down to it, the plan I have for my life and the person that I want to become has no real use for those type of people. I honestly saw them as being more detriments than benefits and I just can't have that.

But on a brighter note, it really made me evaluate my friendships with EVERYONE. Who can I appreciate? Who do I feel appreciates me? Will this person be someone I can truly see being a part of my future? And with that being said, I think I'm good! I've always kept the amount of people I called "friends" very VERY small. Because not everybody is your friend, regardless of what they say. I think I've been blessed to have a select few who I really can call friends. People who I know will have my back and support me 100%. People that aren't at all gonna bullshit me and lie to me. There's a certain level of trust that I have with these people. Particularly 3. Everyone knows my team..it's 4 of us and without them I think my life would be in shambles on a regular basis. LOL. I've been going through a lot lately and so have they but recently we've come together in such a way that I never imagined. Our bond and our strength as a unit is unbelievable and I am so thankful to be a part of a group that I know I can trust whole heartedly.

But even as happy as I am with them, I'm soooo sad! (Told yall my emotions were all over the place!! LMAO!) Recently, I lost one of my best friends....not lost...cause he's not dead or anything lol, but our friendship ended. And that mess is killing me because it didn't have to. I've been really...depressed? Not depressed but sad about it. But I havent really said much...I've tried not to show it but I just think it's crazy. When at this time of my life and I'm trying to figure out who's really there and who shouldn't be, I lose my best friend? Over some bullshit? And I'm not gonna go into what happened but the situation could have been easily rectified has he just tried to talk to me. I feel like he gave up on our friendship before I did. When ego's and pride come in the way of friendship, it's like...well how genuine was it from the beginning? I believe in taking responsibility for your actions and when you can't humble yourself enough to do that, that's a problem. When you can have civil conversations with everyone else about it but you can't come to me without an attitude? That's a problem. Because I wasn't the one who was wrong so if anyone should have an attitude, it should be me. And I didn't, I was more hurt by something he did than angry. And apparently he thought if he tried to talk to me, I would get angry...but he never tried, so how would he know?? And that's what I mean by he gave up on the friendship because there was never a conversation of "Look, I was wrong...I'm sorry, how can we get passed this?" It was like "Well i did all I can do....whatever". That's a problem. And that's when I shut down. When I feel like you've given me that "well fuck u..." attitude, it's a wrap! So that's been really fuckin wit me but I'm trying to get over it and keep it pushing. 

I think that's the good thing about having the friends I have though. I don't have to tell them "I'm upset...I need you"....they know. And they've been awesome. They've been there when I wanted to talk, they've been there when I didn't wanna talk. That I can appreciate. That's what I think true friendship is about. Having that connection with a person that regardless or not they verbalize something, you can tell and you have a internal obligation to support them because you WANT to. I feel blessed to have that..