I'm Not Gay Anymore....Thank God!!!

 I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine this morning and we were discussing a former classmate who claims to have been "cured" of his homosexuality by God. Now this topic has been argued before time and time again but I never really paid it any attention until I was talking about it today. And I'm well aware that I'm about to piss off some people but oh well...you are more than welcome to click that "X" in the upper right hand corner.

Now the only reason this topic is even relevent to me is because I've dated guys who have either claimed God saved them after we stopped dating or blamed me because once I came into the picture, I "corrupted" them! I don't know how I feel about either claims. Like was dealing with me so difficult that you thought it'd be easier to get some pussy?

I will admit, the guy who I corrupted...I did it on purpose. Lol. He told me he was bisexual before but God had helped him rid himself of those  "demons", and for years he fought me but one day he finally stepped out of denial and we ended up dating.

My question however is, are you really serious? I'm sorry but I just don't believe in it. But let me clarify, I am in no way trying to challenge or doubt the power of God. I have my own personal faith and relationship with my creator and it's very strong but as far as I'm concerned, God made you the way he intended for you to be. Do NOT question his judgement and decisions. You're own personal issues with your sexuality is just that. Don't say God doesn't want you to be gay or he doesn't love you if you are a homosexual. That just feeds into the horrible discrimination that the gay community has faced forever and in my opinion, it gives God a bad name. Don't do that because you are uncomfortable with what you see as a "demon".

Which leads me to question those people who say God "cured" them. Now the guys I dated who dealt with this situation, have both gone on to dating men again...so were they cured? Or was it their own personal self will that helped them supress their attraction and prevent them from acting on their temptations and impulses? I'm gonna say that was it.

What do you guys think?

VIDEO PREMIERES: Mariah Carey- "Up Out My Face" & "Angels Cry"

Finally Finally Finally!

The video premieres for Mariah Carey's latest singles have finally come!

The first one being one of my faves "Up Out My Face". The song features hip-hop It girl Nicki Minaj. I'm not crazy about the remix but I like the video and it has my boy B.Scott in it so I'm happy!

The other is "Angel's Cry" featuring my baby Ne-Yo!! I think I'm more excited about anything new from him than I am for the actual video. But it's cool. The song is great and the video is cute too! It reminds me of the "One Sweet Day" video back in the day.

 Check em out!!! And be sure to get Mariah's remix album coming out in March!

NEW MUSIC : Christina Aguilera - "Spotlight"

With the upcoming April release of her fifth studio album "Bionic", Christina Aguilera is definitely someone who I've been waiting to hear new music from! So naturally, I was elated to listen to the new track "Spotlight" leaked today. It's been said that the track will be on the album but I doubt it. It's off the soundtrack to her new movie "Burlesque" in which she co-stars with singer/actress Cher.

So as always, check it out and let know what ya think!!

KeKe Wyatt Interview w/ Shuddup.com

So many people have been like "Yo you are really on this KeKe Wyatt chick!", YOU DAMN STRAIGHT! I have been waiting for this album for years! Tracks from Soul Sista still get played on a daily basis! So please believe that I'm hype and will be up bright and early on February 23rd to buy the new album Who Knew? 

At any rate, I just saw a new interview with KeKe from the site Shuddup.com. KeKe speaks candidly about the new album, her "snapped" moment when she stabbed her husband, being labeled as Avant's  "duet girl" as well as upcoming projects and who she'd like to SHUDDUP! So check out the interview and be sure to get that album!!

KeKe Wyatt Talks to Shuddup.com about "Who Knew" & Domestic Violence from shudduptv on Vimeo.

To Those Who Wanna Know What's Going On.....

Hey Guys,

I know alot of you have been following my status updates on facebook and I've gotten quite a few messages and calls asking what's wrong so I just wanted to address the situation while I had a little time.

Without giving too much detail, the situation is this. Someone very close to my heart is currently in the hospital being treated for a extremely severe illness. I've been back and forth to the hospital for the last few days to be with them so if you've texted, called, emailed etc. and I haven't responded, it's not because I'm being rude or dismissive, I've just been really trying to deal with all that's going on and be supportive to this person.

Here's where I stand right now though:

I have a overwhelming amount of love coming from family and friends. Family who I honestly haven't had much of a relationship with for most of my life have become a major part of my life in such a short time and I'm forever grateful for that. I am surrounded by positivity and strength. Their strength gives me strength. In addition to that, I've noted these two people before, but my two best friends Matthew and Tiffany have been my steady support system through this all. With daily encouragement and positive wishes, I find solace in them whenever I need it. Whether I need to vent, cry, laugh or just take a break from everything, I know I can always depend on them to be by my side.

It's such a tough time because I've never been in a position where I had to deal with the thought of losing someone I love so unconditionally. To know that someone I would quickly give my life for is so passionately fighting for their own hurts my heart to extent I never believed possible. But I am trying my best to stay strong and optimistic. I will say it's hard though.

On a different note though, and you all know I wouldn't be the person I am if I didn't say this, I must admit I'm  a bit upset. Pissed...beyond pissed actually. It's so absolutely ridiculous how very immature and petty some people can be. Very few people know the actual details of the situation, and those people know because these are people I have trusted a great deal and I'm rather annoyed that due to a disagreement or difference in words,  there are people who wouldn't even think to at least say "Hey, how are you feeling?". Regardless of how you feel about someone at that moment, when you call yourself a "friend", when they are hurting I would think you'd at least lend some sort of support. It just astonishes me. It really makes me reevaluate the people I   bring into my life.

With that being said, I want to thank everyone who took the time to send words of encouragement and support. None of it goes unnoticed or unappreciated. I love you all very much!

Blame It On Me? (Late Night Vent)

I will be the first to admit that I love getting a rise out of people...I say and do all types of shit to get reactions and responses from people. I won't lie. LOL. I just like observing behaviors of people when they are in a unusual predicament. But when it comes to guys I'm involved with, I'm always very straight forward. I say what I feel, and I mean what I say. Period.

Now if I tell a guy "I like you, I want to be with you" etc, I mean it and I'm gonna do what I gotta do to assure them that I'm serious. I except the same. If you tell me you wanna be with me and you want me to take you seriously, then give me a reason to do so. That always seems to be the issue though and it annoys the hell outta me. So much that I've recently thought to myself  "I wonder if they say certain shit just to get a reaction outta me...to see what I'm gonna say or do." and it's pathetic really. But that's what I've dealt with in the recent months.

Last week, a guy I've known for years calls me and asks me what's going on with the dude I was talking to the last time he and I spoke. I tell him it's over because dude was on his bullshit. Swearing up and down that "we" meant so much to him but he wasn't willing to put forth the time and effort necessary to maintain or progress. We'll talk about that dude in a minute though. So the guy says "well thats cause you need to stop dealin with them other guys and let me show you what a real dude is cause you've been sleeping on me"...first of all, that line in itself is so typical. I've been "sleeping" on you? No, I've been bypassing you by because you exhibit the same bullshit qualities that most young  boys (and i do mean BOYS) that I encounter possess. So of course he swears up and down that I'm wrong about him and I should give him a shot. I think to myself...hell, the dude I've been trying to be with for months is doing him, ain't thinkin bout me...I'm almost positive he's talking to someone else...fuck it, I'll play along....and what do you know? I was right. He was about the same shit......and had the nerve to get mad at me cause I called him on it. Oh well...

So on to the guy who I've been dealing with for sometime now, this thing between he and I has been a total rollercoaster from Day 1 but we (and by we, I mean I) kept trying to fix it and work it out. We'd stop talking and come back to it, stop talking and come back to it. I think both of us were getting tired of the up and down so we had what seemed like productive conversation in which we came up with a solution. Things were good...for the time being. All of a sudden, we barely talked, couldn't get in touch with homie....you're never around, claiming you're working but I can go to your Twitter page any time of day and see you going back and forth minute by minute ALL DAY with who ever. I'm like fuck it, I don't care. I'm done. But friends say talk to him about it..so I address it. Ask him what's up, tell me if he wants us to be done say so, but if he's gonna keep saying he wants us to work he needs to step his shit up. As usual, he acts like he's so shocked, like I've said something so unfathomable and he has no idea where it's coming from.

I try my best to keep things cordial after we decide that it's not working. But now it's being made out like it was my fault that it's over. Like homie, you decided our fate....you ended us in reality so don't come at me feeling some kinda way when I've decided to wash my hands of the situation. Talking about it's so hard to move on and all that but it really shouldn't be since you didn't really care from the jump and was doing you the whole time. That just annoys me because so many come out say how different they are and then do the same things typical and basic dudes do. If you're gonna say one thing..do that. But if you change the program, don't get mad when the outcome isn't what you thought it'd be......

Oh well, this has gotten really long...lol oops.

and most of it probably makes no sense but I was angry sooo deal with it!

night!

New Music: Monica - "Everything (To Me)"

Check out new music by songstress Monica. The track is called "Everything (To Me)".

I kinda like it but I honestly hope it's not on the new album Still Standing.  I love the tracks "One In A Lifetime" and "Taxi" but this one...I don't know, I think I'm bored. You be the judge....

ARTIST SPOTLIGHT: WAYNE

Late last year I did a review on Wayne’s introduction to world with his mixtape “The Reformation” and with the upcoming released of his follow up, “Reformation 2.0”, I thought it was time to really let you guys know about this extremely talented and multifaceted young man. With that being said, I had the chance to sit down and have a conversation with Wayne about his background to his love of music and all that helps creates this force in the making.

Born Anthony Dewayne Reaves Jr. in Mullins, SC, “Wayne” as he’s known by his supporters gained his passion at a very young age. Realizing how much of an influence music had on his life he began to really take notice in his interest in it and started experimenting with singing and writing music. However it wasn’t until he got a change of scenery that he really began making it top priority. With the release of his first mixtape and doing spot gigs around the Florida area as well as becoming one of YouTube’s most popular and most watched personalities, the newly 21 year old is coming into his own and is ready to take control of his career and show the world why they need to listen up.

• How long have you been singing and writing music?

Oh wow… Okay, lets see… Singing… I’ve been doing that forever. To me it feels like something that I just did, like an instinct or something. I can remember doing fake concerts in front of my bed, pretending it was a sold out crowd. I’d put a cd in and perform the WHOLE thing. And I thought I was doing it big too! {laughs}  But writing, I can’t remember where it started, but I’ve always been writing, whether it was stories or poems. But I think I can remember writing my first song in 7^th or 8^th grade and it was called “Changed”. I believe that’s what it was called. I loved it!

• Who would you say has been your biggest inspiration and why?

My biggest inspiration has to come from Janet [Jackson] and Prince. Prince because I love the way he writes. He doesn’t allow anything to restrict him. And I love that. He pushes the envelope, he thinks outside of the box. And musically he just takes you there. And I think that’s how men should be. He inspires me to take it there and just be myself and not restrict myself to just one type thing or genre. Janet is just on a another level of inspiration. She inspires me musically, and personally. From her music, to her just being her. You can’t help but watch her and just feel a type of closeness to her. It’s like “the light”. You see the light, and you want to step into it. Janet is the light!

• How does your passion for music differentiate you from other artists trying to establish themselves in the industry?

Well, I’m not sure about everyone else that is trying to get where they want to be, but I know for myself, I have drive and determination. I can get so wrapped up in doing what I want to do that I can kind of block other things out. Some people wanted to grow up and go to college and become doctors, while I wanted to have a number one movie and number one album on the charts at the same time. I’ve come to learn that if I don’t do what I have to do, then I won’t get anywhere, and that’s why I work so hard to get myself where I want to be. I also think that my passion for music as a whole will allow me to go far. As I said before, if you typecast yourself into just one genre, then you become limited, and I don’t want to do that. I want to go as far as I can.

• Describe the meaning behind “The Reformation”

Reformation means, starting over. Coming out of a situation, whether, bruised, broken, or stronger, and starting all over again. Picking up from where you left off, but doing much better than you were before. When I started working on the Reformation mixtape, I was battered, confused, messed up, tore up. And working on those songs helped me out a lot. They got me through. They gave me confidence and they helped mend my heart. It made me realize a lot of stuff about myself that I never knew before.

• How long did it take to compile the mixtape?

It took about a good month and a half. I remember I started in late August. I remember I wanted have it finished before my birthday to show someone, but it didn’t make it, and that kinda made me keep going. So I worked on it all through September and I finished in early October I believe.

• Did you work with any other writers or did you each song yourself?

I wrote everything myself except for the covers. I guess you could call “H.A.T.E.U” a co write because I wrote some parts, and The Dream wrote the rest.

• Where do you draw inspiration from when writing these songs? Are they personal experiences?

Most of my songs do come from personal experience. Or something I thought about before, or maybe even something that I saw before. I think it’s best to write about what you know, or what you’ve been through, because that way other people will relate. I’ve noticed that if you just sing about something that you have no clue about, people notice it, and they don’t really care too much for it.

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• First live performance? What was it like?

Oh My God! It was amazing! It was crazy because I’m extremely shy when it comes to things like that, but it just seems like all that went out the door. It was like floating on a cloud, or laying on a bed of feathers. It felt like home, where I was meant to be. I did not want to get off that stage. It was fun as well. I did a little Christmas song at the beginning and sucked!  But I laughed it off, and just kept going. And then I performed my songs, and the rest was a piece of cake. It was great to just be in the presence of Grammy nominated artists [3x Grammy nominee BeatNik Castle], it kind of intimidated me a bit, but I felt like I held my own! Amazing is the only way to say it.

• Do you prefer performing or recording?

I love them both. Recording is great, cause it allows you to play around and do what you want to do and if you mess up, you can go back and fix it. The only thing that gets annoying about it is mixing.  That can take forever!! And it’s so tiring sometimes because you just want to hear what you did. But I love it. And performing is just amazing! You get to take what you did and bring life to it! Make people see the music in a whole different light. A performance can make someone who hated your song love it. And that’s amazing! I love them both! I can’t choose

• How far along are you with the new mixtape?

The new mixtape is not quite done. I’m a couple of songs in. I’m gonna try something different with this one. I don’t want to say “Okay, I have this amount of songs so I’ll just stop here.” I’m gonna keep going and put them all together and see what I have and then make the decision there.

• With the little time between the first mixtape and the new one, do you think you’ve grown as an artist? How so?

Oh HELL YES!! I’ve grown soooo much! When I go and record a new song, I’m surprised!! It’s like wow! I feel that I’ve grown mentally, and vocally, lyrically as well! I’ve been writing songs with deeper lyrics. Also I’ve been doing more with my voice. Trying different sounds, trying to hit different notes. I’ve been using different music as well. Taking it to another level. “Reformation” was more R&B and it had it’s moments where it would try something different, It was safe. This time I’m playing on the edge of the cliff. And I like it.

• There was only one collaboration on the first mixtape, are you planning to feature more underground artists?

As of right now, I haven’t worked with anyone underground. I loved Skank Dogg on the first one, and I would love to work with him again. I’ve been thinking about it. I got my sister involved a little bit, and I may get her more involved. I’m not sure at this particular moment, but you never know. However there is this guy I know, and his voice is amazing! I would love to do something with him, if he ever has the time.

• What direction are you going with this mixtape? Will it still have the variety that the first one had?

I like the word variety! I think “Reformation” had a lot of variety! It had love, hate, heartbreak, happiness, and pain. That’s one thing I want to keep there. I want to take people on a journey with me when they listen to my music. Show them things they never heard before. Make them look at something differently. I’ve done some tracks that are so different from the first mixtape. In “Heartbreaker”, I put myself in the shoes of someone who has problems committing to relationships. In a way I could see a little bit of myself in the lyrics. But not as blunt as the song is. This mixtape is very different from where I started off, and I’m falling in love with the material already!

•  What do you want to become of your career right now?

Right now, the only thing I want of my career is to get established. Because when that happens, I’ll know that all my hard work has paid off. All the years of chasing a dream will come to an end, and the dream will be mine! THEN, I’ll relax! [laughs] but not too much!

• Is there any particular artist you would love to work with?

I could go on and on because I love almost everybody! But Janet, Prince, Beyonce, Shakira, Alicia Keys, Chris Brown, Missy Elliot, Timbaland, JoJo.. The list is long, and gets longer with everything I hear.

• With such a natural talent for songwriting would you consider writing for other artists?

Yes that would be awesome!

Wayne is set to release "Reformation 2.0" in February. Check out his new remix to "H.AT.E.U" and be sure to stay up to date all he's doing because you're sure to hear his name and music all over in the future! 

VIDEO PREMIERE: Keke Wyatt - "Who Knew?"

Now yall know I go hard for some KeKe Wyatt! This womans voice gives me chills! Sooo I'm so happy that I just got to check out her new video for the single "Who Knew?" of her upcoming album of the same name to be released in February.

The video is simple but beautiful and goes perfectly with the song. And KeKe looks flawless! I've always thought she was a pretty girl, but you REALLY see it in this video. I'm so excited for the new album!

Check Out The Video & Leave Comments!!

VIDEO PREMIERE: Trey Songz ft. Fabolous - "Say Ahh"

^^Isn't he fine?!?^^

Lol, Today Trey Songz premiered his video for the hit song "Say Ahh" via Myspace. It's a continuation of the one we saw at the end of the "Invented Sex" video. Truth be told, I'm a little bored. For some reason I'm never crazy about this man's videos. But after seeing him live the other night, I'll never deny this man's talent as a performer...he just needs a better video director.

At any rate, check it out! Let me know what you guys think about it!

Trey Songz - "Say Aah" ft. Fabolous [Official Video]

Trey Songz | MySpace Music Videos