Willow Smith Signs To Roc Nation?

Yesterday I posted via Facebook a link to Willow Smith's (Daughter of Will and my boo Jada!) debut single "Whip My Hair", personally I LOVE LOVE LOVE the song! I think it's so cute. It's fun and catchy. So I was hooked. But today I find out she's officially been signed to Jay-Z's Roc Naton label. Hello? That's MAJOR! Major! Jay went on to say 

"It’s rare to find an artist with such innate talent and creativity at such a young age. Willow is about to embark on an incredible journey and we look forward to joining her as she grows in all aspects of her career.”

To be acknowledged by Jay-Z in such a way is a big deal because lets face it, he is an amazing artist and even though I can't stand her, look at what he did for Rihanna...even though she shouldn't be, she's a superstar. So imagine what he could do with Willow who actually has some sort of VOCAL ABILITY! 

But I've been hearing a bunch of people talk about, well she's 9! So what!!! Susan Boyle was 46 when she debuted and she sold how many records? Age means nothing, if you got a hit, you got a hit! Whip My Hair has potential to lead to a hit. It's something that's gonna have you notice her. My twitter timeline is full of Willow Smith comments so umm, she must be doing something right! People are saying she's being forced into music. Highly unlikely. Will and Jada seem to be very open when it comes to allowing their children to select their own path and I doubt they are gonna let anyone put their kids in positions in which they don't need to be so this little girl is gonna be okay! 

In the meantime, check out the song and let me know what you think!!!

.::SoloRising::.

Today I was really surprised by all the questions I got from people about my change in twitter name and signature for my outgoing messages. It's now .::SoloRising::. I was shocked anyone said anything because really, who pays attention to the signatures on peoples text messages? LOL! But many of my friends who I talk to on a regular basis were like  'Oh I like that!' or  'What's that about?!?'  

I think SoloRising comes from a place in my life where I'm moving on and trying to do things for myself by myself. In all honesty, it stemmed from  a conversation I had with a friend about how hurt I was about feeling betrayed and neglected by certain friends and family members. Feeling like I try my best to show the very few people I let get close to me  how much they  mean to me and how much I value their place in my life. Trying to do that and it only backfiring or not being reciprocated. Feeling like I try to be so much to so many people and not having that in return, feeling like I deserved that and was made to feel bad for wanting it. It started with being hurt and sad to being extremely angry. From being like "Why don't these people care to have me in their lives like I care to have them in mine?" to "You know what, f*** all of you...I'm done trying to please you damn ingrates!" LOL. Harsh right? I know but it's real. It's how I felt. I didn't really wanna talk to anyone because I felt like I was being fake as hell if I was talking to these people who I was furious with. 

So last night when I was speaking to a friend who I pretty much grew up with, she said "What happened to you? What happened to the Rodney that didn't give a damn who was there or who wasn't because he was gonna do what he wanted?" What DID happen to that guy? I was so secure in my skin, didn't need a damn soul and for damn sure wasn't pressed if people chose not to be around. "Oh you don't wanna be here....Bye!" She said "You gotta get back to that...get back to focusing on you and doing what you wanna do because it's something that you wanna do. Don't worry about hearing from this person or having that person in your corner...those who really matter know who you are and will do what they have to do to show you that they value you, those who don't matter will continue to flutter and end up feeling STUPID when you aren't around and they realize what a good friend they lost"

Umm DUH! So right! I've spent so much time feeling wrapped up in who was there and who wasn't...who I could depend on and who I couldn't...who was in my corner and who was against me. The only person who really matters is ME. I'm the one who has to be happy with me at the end of the day. So SoloRising comes from me deciding to do things on my own. Focus on me, take time to begin doing things that make me happy again, get what I want and evaluate my life. Progression. Furtherance. Independently. Time to rise and take my life back and do it without relying so heavily on others for fulfillment. 

NEW MUSIC: "Can't Be Friends" - Trey Songz

YUUUP!!! 

Earlier this week I posted Trey Songz new album cover for the "Passion, Pain & Pleasure" album coming out on September 14th and I let yall know that Trey just shot the video for Bottoms Up! I've already heard a few songs from the album but today I came across one that really stuck out to me. This new track is to be the second single from the album, it's called "Can't Be Friends". I am so in love with it! It's like "Black Roses Part II" and everyone knows that is without a doubt my favorite Trey track! So this one definitely has my attention! Check it out!

Trey Songz: "Can't Be Friends"

What About Your Friends?!

I'm not even gonna lie, I'm sooooo singing right now! "what about your friendsssss, will they stand and frown, will they let you down!!!" Hahahaha! Sorry, I'm  kinda in a goofy ass mood right now! Forgive me! 

My feelings are so all over the place yall it's unbelievable. In some ways I am feeling really good. I feel like I'm really starting to figure out what I want out of life and I'm trying to get together than plan to make those things happen. And I feel good about that. I'm confident that I can do what I need to do. But at the same time I'm kinda upset because in trying to take my life in a new directions, I had to let go of some of the people who have really been a part of my life for a while. I'm kinda sick about it. I think I've had to let go of a good 5 or 6 people in the last two weeks. I'm not gonna sit here and lie and pretend like it was such a hard thing to do cause it really wasn't. Once I've made up my mind about being done with you...I'm done. But the thing that I'm kinda upset about is the fact that a few of these people are people that I swore would be in my life forever. But when it came down to it, the plan I have for my life and the person that I want to become has no real use for those type of people. I honestly saw them as being more detriments than benefits and I just can't have that.

But on a brighter note, it really made me evaluate my friendships with EVERYONE. Who can I appreciate? Who do I feel appreciates me? Will this person be someone I can truly see being a part of my future? And with that being said, I think I'm good! I've always kept the amount of people I called "friends" very VERY small. Because not everybody is your friend, regardless of what they say. I think I've been blessed to have a select few who I really can call friends. People who I know will have my back and support me 100%. People that aren't at all gonna bullshit me and lie to me. There's a certain level of trust that I have with these people. Particularly 3. Everyone knows my team..it's 4 of us and without them I think my life would be in shambles on a regular basis. LOL. I've been going through a lot lately and so have they but recently we've come together in such a way that I never imagined. Our bond and our strength as a unit is unbelievable and I am so thankful to be a part of a group that I know I can trust whole heartedly.

But even as happy as I am with them, I'm soooo sad! (Told yall my emotions were all over the place!! LMAO!) Recently, I lost one of my best friends....not lost...cause he's not dead or anything lol, but our friendship ended. And that mess is killing me because it didn't have to. I've been really...depressed? Not depressed but sad about it. But I havent really said much...I've tried not to show it but I just think it's crazy. When at this time of my life and I'm trying to figure out who's really there and who shouldn't be, I lose my best friend? Over some bullshit? And I'm not gonna go into what happened but the situation could have been easily rectified has he just tried to talk to me. I feel like he gave up on our friendship before I did. When ego's and pride come in the way of friendship, it's like...well how genuine was it from the beginning? I believe in taking responsibility for your actions and when you can't humble yourself enough to do that, that's a problem. When you can have civil conversations with everyone else about it but you can't come to me without an attitude? That's a problem. Because I wasn't the one who was wrong so if anyone should have an attitude, it should be me. And I didn't, I was more hurt by something he did than angry. And apparently he thought if he tried to talk to me, I would get angry...but he never tried, so how would he know?? And that's what I mean by he gave up on the friendship because there was never a conversation of "Look, I was wrong...I'm sorry, how can we get passed this?" It was like "Well i did all I can do....whatever". That's a problem. And that's when I shut down. When I feel like you've given me that "well fuck u..." attitude, it's a wrap! So that's been really fuckin wit me but I'm trying to get over it and keep it pushing. 

I think that's the good thing about having the friends I have though. I don't have to tell them "I'm upset...I need you"....they know. And they've been awesome. They've been there when I wanted to talk, they've been there when I didn't wanna talk. That I can appreciate. That's what I think true friendship is about. Having that connection with a person that regardless or not they verbalize something, you can tell and you have a internal obligation to support them because you WANT to. I feel blessed to have that..

CHECK IT OUT: Chris Brown's "12 Strands"

It looks like Chris is definitely trying to make his way back on top and he's finding several different outlets to do so. I came across a trailer for Chris' new short film "12 Strands". From what I understand it's gonna be some type of action thriller. Based on the trailer it looks like it could be some kinda mini-movie that's gonna tie in with Chris' role in the new film "Takers". At any rate, it looks good from what I can see so check it out!!

12 Strands (Matrix) Teaser from Gloob Marketing on Vimeo.

NEW MUSIC: "Bottoms Up" - Trey Songz featuring Nicki Minaj

Okay I'm sure most of you heard Trey Songz new single "Bottoms Up" featuring Nicki Minaj. Some people are loving it...others..not so much. I'm kinda inbetween. I am definitely a Trey Songz fan. Will be spending my birthday at his concert and all, however..I don't think this should have been a first single. It just doesn't match the quality of music that I've come to expect from Trey. But being the supporter that I am I have to post it and let you guys judge for yourself.

I will say this about the track...must much much respect to Nicki Minaj because she FLAMES this track! I love her verse on it! I don't care who hates on this woman, she is hot!

Check out Trey on tour with Monica for the "Passion, Pain & Pleasure" tour and be sure to get the new album on September 14th!

Lyrics To Relate To...

  

I've been listening to Vivian Green's "Beautiful" album a lot lately. I've actually been listening to all of her music lately but today I was listening to these song and it kinda made me think about a few different situations. Situations dealing with myself and situations dealing with friends of mine...check it out and tell me if you can relate! 

The Things People Will Deal With For Love?

I've been single for what seems like forever and someday's I'm okay with that and other days, not so much. However, recently many of my friends have entered new relationships or are rekindling old ones and I've noticed the same issues with ALL of them! Each and every single one of them is dealing with ridiculous amounts of bullshit to maintain these relationships. Why?! Why are you dealing with this man treating you like hell? Why are you dealing with this man talking to you like he runs you? For what?! Is your relationship really worth your dignity? Is your relationship really worth you sacrificing the person that you are?

I just don't get it. And some of them have said to me "well you don't understand cause you're single"..you're right!! I don't understand and that is the reason I am single because I will NEVER deal with that mess! I've done it before...at this phase in my life I can't tolerate anyone else's mess regardless of whether I love you or not. If I don't feel like I'm being treated in a way that is beneficial to me or is equating what I'm giving, it's a wrap! I'm done with the situation and there is absolutely no looking back. 

For instance, I recently severed all ties with an ex who I'd been dealing with for about 5 years. We played the friends role, then more recently we acted like we might get back together..all the nonsense. Then one day he put me in a really uncomfortable position that made me ask myself the same questions I've been asking my friends. Are you really about to continue to deal with this mans ridiculousness? Hell no!! So with that being said, I wished him the best and made it clear that our presence in each others lives would no longer be. 

As I said, I'm just at a point in my life where I'm focusing on myself and dealing with other peoples negativity and unnecessary baggage isn't something I need. And now people are asking me if I miss him...if I'm sad...If we'll ever be friends again. No I don't miss him. No I'm not sad. I'm fine! I hope he can understand where I'm coming from and accept that as is. Who knows what will happen in the future, if we're meant to be a part of each others lives we will be. But right now, that's not an option as far as I'm concerned. 

But you know what, now that I've just said that I think about another situation I'm in right now. I was dealing with this guy Anthony a while back and I was kinda a asshole to him. I think I gave him the same bullshit I've seen my friends dealing with. The unneccsary drama and all that. I was really messed up about a relationship I had just gotten out of and I took it out on him. So obviously he decided he didn't wanna deal with the mess anymore and we stopped dealing with each other. He started dating someone else and I then realized just how bad I messed up. (don't know what you got until it's gone right?) I started seeing how seemingly happy they were (twitter is the devil) and realized that could have been us. Anyway they broke up and I tried to kinda get back in the picture wit him and to be quite frank..he wasn't having it. LOL. I was hurting over it because my feelings for him are genuine so I'm still hurt about it but just like my ex had to accept that I couldnt  deal with his stuff, I guess I gotta accept that Anthony is in a place in his life where he doesnt feel like he can or wants to deal with mine. **tears** 

But the point is, everyone has their boundaries and limits...people will deal with alot when it comes to love but you gotta be careful with that because there's gonna be and NEEDS to be a point when you realize you gotta do what you gotta do for YOU. And you'll either end up losing something that could have been PERFECT such as my situation with Anthony or you'll end up losing yourself because you dealt with entirely TOO much! There has to be a BALANCE!!!!!!!! Think about it!

Will He Ever Be Just A Friend?

Alright, I know I'm trippin lately with these sporadic ass posts. I'm sorry guys! My life has been unbelievably chaotic. I'm beyond exhausted....hell I need a nap to get to exhausted. 

So with that being said, it' hard to get on here cause I end up falling asleep as soon as I turn the computer on! 

Anyway, recently I've really been evaluating the people I've surrounded myself with. I have some truly amazing people in my life and some that I SHOULD be without. You ever feel like someone can call YOU a friend but you'd never call them one? I find myself in that position too many times. I'm always there for people but when it comes time for them to be there for me, It's like "U got me?...oh u dont?....oh ok..." lol. It sucks but it's true. So I've taken some time to do me and be alone. Time well spent believe me..in that time I was able to really convey to some people how I felt about the status of our friendship and I think it has allowed us to kinda rectify the situation and work on things. 

But more importantly, with all the evaluating I've done...the other night I did something I NEVER in my life dreamed I'd do. Said words I never thought would come out my mouth. The other night I told my ex that I felt like it was best that he and I made a permanent exit from each others lives. Things have gotten too complicated and confusing with us. It's very inconsistent and I just can't take it anymore. It's not healthy for me. Sometimes he's there..other times he's gone for months. I refuse to just deal with it. We've been doing this for 5-6 years and I just feel like it's time it comes to an end. It sucks because so many people were kinda rooting for us. Thinking and hoping that we'd get back together. And maybe that was the problem cause so did I. I still had that hope and everytime he'd come around my hopes would go up and he'd disappear again. We'd actually recently discussed getting back together shockingly enough. Had it planned out...talked about when the time would be best etc. But once again..the inconsistency just proved to be too much for me. 

5 years of being together...trying to be friends...back to trying to be together again...to me saying get out my life? It brought me to this very common question....Can your ex ever REALLY be your friend?

And I mean JUST your friend.

I don't think so. Why? Cause the two of you will always have certain expectations from each other. You'll always require more from each other. I don't know. I've only been in 2 serious committed relationships. One of which is the one I just ended..the other is one in which the guy became my best friend. He's actually like a brother. HOWEVER, I stick by the theory that he'll never JUST be a friend. Not to me anyway. I can't speak for him because I don't think he'd ever tell me if he felt anything outside of a friendship. But I know as far as I'm concerned, I'm gonna always expect more from him. Expect him to treat me differently that other guys. I'll never be okay with him dating someone else, I'll never be okay with listening to him talk about other guys. I'll tolerate but it'll always bother me.

And on top of that, how do you break out of the familiarity of doing the things you used to do? I mean he's my best friend....so I never really think of us getting back together but it's hard being around him sometime because I might still wanna hold his hand or kinda lay on him or things like that because for so long that's what I was used to. We weren't together for an extensive period of time but even after we broke up that was still something we shared. It was more of a comfort thing. I became accustomed to that comfort, to receiving that affection from him and to not have it when I want it, upsets me. It shouldn't. But it does. Lol, it's funny cause I caught myself the other day. We went to the movies and I wasn't even really paying him any attention but I think his arm or something ended up being on top of mine and I almost went to grab his hand but I pictured him looking at me like "WTF?" and I was llike whoaaa!! NOPE!! LOL! (I have a extreme fear of rejection!) 

It's just odd. I just feel like your ex's are your ex's for a reason. Trying to make it anything past that is destined for complication and confusion. So my friends might ask "why don't you talk to _____" and i'll be like "for what?"  if he's moved on with his life and i've done the same WHAT DO WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT? 

I have enough confusion in my life. lol. 

I do think removing this other guy from my life is gonna be harder than I've ever imagined. It's one thing to say it...to actually voice it and mean it in my mind but to actually do it is a totally different story. What happens when he calls? When he emails? When he comes to visit this weekend....

What happens then? See....confusion! 

VIDEO PREMIERE: "Yo Side Of The Bed"

Check out Trey Songz latest video for the track "Yo Side of The Bed". It features Keri Hilson. It's a nice video. I like seeing a more emotional side of Trey verses the sexual side of him. 

Keri looks gorgeous as usual and the video is just really cute so check it out! 

VIDEO PREMIERE: Chris Brown- "No Bullshit" & "Deuces"

So we know Chris Brown & Tyga been working together alot lately and released their "Fan of a Fan" mixtape this week. I was gonna do a post about it, but I havent even listened to it yet and after they came out with their first single from it, I didn't see the point in rushing to since I hated the first track.

But all day I been hearing about the release of these two new videos that they released...needless to say I was uninterested...that is, until I got a message saying it was a must that I go look at this one video. But i'll get to that in a minute...for the time being, check out the video for the song  "Deuces". I like the song, it talks about pretty much saying "i'm out" to that person who's on the bullshit. 

Okay so check it out...

Video Debut Chris Brown ft. Tyga & Kevin McCall – ‘DEUCES’ from Gloob Marketing on Vimeo.

NOW....now is what you REALLY need to see. This is what me and my crew have been waiting for for YEARS! This video by Chris Brown "No Bullshit" is......soooo.....orgasmic? And i think that's putting it lightly. When Trey came out and got all grown and sexy, my whole team was like "When Chris finally comes out and does it, it's gonna be OVER!"....well hello! He's kissing and sucking and....licking?  The conversations I'm having RIGHT NOW over this video are too much! People are going in and I can NOT wait to hear what you guys have to say....







Chris Brown - No Bullshit from Terrell Johnson on Vimeo.

MMMMMM CHRIS!! YUM!

Download the "Fan of a Fan" Mixtape by Chris Brown & Tyga

Break-Up Season....

So it's officially Spring/Summer time and yall know what that means! 

It's time for fellas to start acting out and ladies to start dressing less. 

Which means what? An extreme decrease in the amount of monogamous relationships! 

I know it's bad to think that way..but it's the truth! I've already had like 4 of my friends tell me that their relationship recently came to end. And while I can't really say that Spring time was the cause of the demise of their partnerships, can we really say it's not the cause of so many others? ....didn't think so

But regardless of why it is, THIS is the time where most couples fail....so this is the time where I spend most of my time listening to friends who are heartbroken or reading status updates and tweets from people who wanna say "i miss him..." or "I still love you..." or something to that effect. 

And this might seem sooooo horrible, but I get BEYOND annoyed by that! Not because they're doing it, but because it lasts FOREVER! At what point do get the hell up and begin to move on? 

Now I recently went through a "break-up" so to speak...and I didn't even tell anyone about it. It was just over. One of my friends called me today actually and was like "how's ____? where's he at?" .....to which I responded "Hell if I know!"  I'm not one for the sitting around and moping and being depressed and crying...I don't have time for that shit. I got 3 papers to write and someones deposit to make! I'm not about to be wasting my time crying over no man! I GOT SHIT TO DO! 

Now everyone who knows me knows when I'm giving myself to someone, I go all in ...no need in half stepping and playing games. So all my friends always ask me how it's so easy for me to just move on...so let me try to break it down for yall...

I've only had...2 (i think) heartbreaks in my life. The first one was with a dude named Brian, I was 15. He was my first love, my first real relationship etc. When he and I broke up, I thought the world was over. I cried, I didn't wanna talk to anyone or be around anyone...it was so serious to me that I actually moved out of my mom's house and moved in with my father so I could just get away from everyone. No one knew where I was but my family...and Brian of course (I wanted to work things out...)...shit's crazy  right? Totally relocated for like 3 or 4 months....I did the whole I'm gonna stay in bed and mope and cry all day thing. Then one day I was like No. I was just tired of it all. Tired of looking like hell while this nigga was out doing his own thing! So from that day on, I promised myself I would NEVER allow myself to get like that again. No man is worth it. 

So from that point on...I haven't. Every dude that's come and gone..it's just kinda been like...oh well. Don't get me wrong, some of them hurt more than others, but I've always had the mentality that I had to keep it movin...there was no time to waste being sad and sitting by the phone waiting for him to call when he usually wasn't going to. 

The second "heartbreak" was Avery. OMG! He was probably the closest thing I'd come to being in a REAL relationship since Brian. Me and Brian broke up in 05..me and Avery didn't meet until 08-09..so it had a been a while. (Just cause I wasn't crying, doesnt mean I wasn't still hurting!  LOL) Putting all my cards on the table, Avery's the dude I told yall about before when I said I kinda wished I would have done things differently and hoped we could fix it etc. Anyway, that situation was great..until it wasn't. We were just at different points in life...wanted different things at the time. So when it ended, I was crushed and ALMOST went back to the crying/depressed shit. 

Almost...but I didn't. Why? Because I have to much to live for and I have too many people who love me and want to see me happy. The key to getting through a break up without all the tears and pain is to have the best support system you can have. I have a great group of friends who will not allow me to be sad or angry. Anytime I'm around them I have to smile and laugh. I don't have an option! I go to them for advice and they listen. When I'm trippin..they tell me! That's all I need. When you feel like you'll never smile or laugh again if you have good friends...that'll never be an option for you. 

I remember talking to one of my best friends about the last guy and kinda being upset about it and she was like "Enjoy him while he's there...if he's there 3 or 4 weeks down the line that's great but if he's not..someone else will be and you WILL be okay but you can't let one heartbreak break you...", I think I'll live with those words forever. Love for others is strong and amazing but love for yourself should be infinite and no one should be able to take away your happiness even for a second because they chose to walk out your life....

When me and Avery were over, after about 3 weeks and 7 extra pounds (it was me and my Chips O Hoy!) I went to my mother totally upset about it and confused as hell about what to do or how I should feel....she quoted somebody and was like "If someone comes and pushes you down, that's their fault..but if they come back 3 weeks later and you're STILL down on that floor, who's fault is that?" 

Think about it.....

Did Yall Miss Me??

Hey Dolls! 

It's been forever right? I keep promising posts and people keep asking me where the hell they are! I'm sorry...life has been MORE than hectic recently and I'm trying my best to keep up with it.

So for those who follow me on Facebook and Twitter (which shockingly is a good amount of ppl...thanks for the support! *muah*), you know that a few weeks ago I was in a really bad car accident. Yall know how you see those really HORRIBLE car accidents on television, you never really think things like that happen...it's all for dramatic effect? No. I believe that was the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life. I posted the pictures of my car afterward and people were shocked that I made it out alive. Truth be told, so am I. I still  have flashbacks on a pretty daily basis but I'm grateful for my life and appreciative that God found it necessary to save me because there is NO reason I should have made it out that car alive other than the fact the He must have something meant for me to do that I've yet to accomplish. 

So enough with that! School is about to be over but I'm still on my grind full force. Just got this second gig at night....and I'm trying to switch into a temporary full-time position at the day gig, all that's still being worked out but I'm gonna get this money one way or another! 

I got alot of stuff on my mind that I wanna share with yall but give me time! Be patient with me, trust me it's gonna be good! 

Love ya much!

VIDEO PREMIERE: "Not Myself Tonight" - Christina Aguilera

So I get home tonight only to see the world that is Twitter going off about this new Christina Aguilera video for her single "Not Myself Tonight". Let me start by saying that I think this woman is one of the most innovative and amazingly talented artists of our generation. And I use the word artist at the highest level. HOWEVER, I am not too fond of this video. Something in me is saying it's...too much? I don' t know. The video has already been compared to something Lady Gaga would do, I don't see that. I think it's very reminiscent of Madonna in her early years. 

Christina is truly an icon in her own right and her creativity has always been off the chart but it was just too much for me. I will say that from album to album and from video to video you can see consistent progress. You definitely always see her pushing herself further and doing more, which I respect 100%. But I don't love the video. Simple as that. Maybe it'll grow on me, much like the song had to but I doubt it. 

But I love her and I respect her. I'm a major fan so with that being said..Check out the video below and let me know what you think!!

TREY SONGZ: UNPLUGGED

So we all know after I saw Trey Songz in concert on New Years, I developed what some might say a slightly twisted obsession with him. I don't know...they may be right. At any rate, after seeing this man perform, there's no doubting or denying his talent and after watchinglast nights premiere of his MTV:UNPLUGGED show, my obsession is heightened. 

The singer performed a few of his biggest hits for a intimate audience. Accompanied by a full band, Trey did acoustic versions of some of the songs which clearly had the ladies (and myself) going crazy. Check out performances below. And be sure to watch his female background singer...she was going OFF during "Neighbors Know My Name"...I'm not saying he hit it..but it looked like homegirl was having flashbacks! 

(Credit: Scott Gries/MTV)

"Panty Droppa/Neigbors Know My Name"

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos



"Invented Sex/Lets Get It On"

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos

"I Need A Girl/Use Somebody"

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos

"Black Roses"

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos

"Say Ahh"

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos

NEW MUSIC: CHRISTINA AGUILERA - "Not Myself Tonight"

After soo much anticipation my girl Ms.Christina Aguilera has premiered her single "Not Myself Tonight" from the upcoming Bionic album. The song is okay. I like it but I still stay true to what I've always said, and that is that unless she's releases another album like Stripped, it'll never get better. That was such a classic album. However, I'm still very much a fan of all her work and this is a pretty good song so check it out and be sure to get the album when it drops in June.

FIRST LOOK! "What Chilli Wants"

I don't know anyone who was NOT a fan of TLC! Songs like "Baby, Baby, Baby" and "Damaged" are still played regularly in my world, so imagine my excitement when I found out that the one and only Chilli aka Sexy (CrazySexyCool) would be doing a reality show for love! 

We all witnessed her very publicized relationship with R&B singer turned loser, Usher. Before that she was with super producer Dallas Austin. Now with this upcoming show (set to premiere April 11, 2010 at 10:30 pm) we'll see Chilli, with the help of some of her closest friends, try to find love. 

Check out VH1's press release about the show & trailer below. 

"What Chilli Wants" features 'Chilli' from pop supergroup TLC, as she has decides to take the reins of her romantic situation and launch an all out search for the love of her life. Despite huge success as a recording artist and a mother, Chilli has grown tired of striking out on the romantic front, so she has enlisted the help of Brooklyn relationship expert Tionna Smalls. Not one to let people take the easy way out, Tionna has promised to give Chilli the challenging emotional workout she needs in order to get over the hurdles that have kept her from having the long-term serious relationship she craves.

Chilli has had heartbreak in the past dating record producer Dallas Austin, and famously, pop superstar Usher. As a result, Chilli now has a checklist that requires potential love interests to not smoke, not drink, have six pack abs, love God, and have no more than two baby momma's...just to name a few.

Chilli's world is populated with lots of familiar faces including potential boyfriend and boxing champ Floyd Mayweather, TLC bandmate and best friend T-Boz; as well as appearances by Missy Elliot, Justin Timberlake, and Taylor Swift.

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Are we looking forward to the show????
And does Chili EVER get older???

As I Grow...

"It's my life and I'm gonna live it like I want to..." 

I think it's very important to be aware of myself and my patterns as I continue to progress in life. I can find my strengths if I don't know my weaknesses. So with that being said I'm very aware of the things I do that aren't "perfect" but I am also very aware of the things that make me a great person. 

However, it bothers me when I feel like I'm judged and criticized for my imperfections but my positive attributes are bypassed. Not that I need validation from anyone. It just bugs me especially when it's someone I'm close to...someone I consider a friend...friend?

Hear me out, the other night someone I consider myself a good friend to really upset me and hurt my feelings by expressing obvious disdain with the way I choose to deal with the men in my life. In so many words, they pretty much called me a whore. Now let me clarify this, I am not now nor have I ever been a whore, slut or any of that other mess. It's not my twist and I hold myself at too high of a caliber to even consider going down that route. I

I will say this though, I am a 19 year old single man. I have no commitments to anyone besides myself and my family. Anyone who knows me is very aware that I'd much prefer to be in a relationship, however, when I'm not in one, why sit home and mope waiting around for it?  No. I believe everyone has phases in their lives that will eventually make up the identity that one is destined to become. With that being said, in this phase of my life, if I'm not in a relationship, I'm gonna have fun. If I choose to date or get to know one guy or two guys or five guys, that's my business. Why turn down opportunity to actually let love find me? I'll never know what I could be missing out on if I'm sitting around wondering why the guy I like hasn't called...why the guy who i'm "dating" never has time for me...I don't do that. Life is too short...if you aren't handling your business or keeping up with my standards, I'm going to move on. Why does that make me a whore? I'm not fucking every dude with a dick. Casual sex isn't for me...not on a regular anyway, cause that's not to say if I want it, I won't go get it. That's where I am right now...in this phase. 

I say that to say this..

I'm growing. I'm maturing. I'm finding my own identity.

But right now...right here, I'm content with this PHASE.  

This CHAPTER of my life works for me.  

Who knows where I´ll be in a year...who knows where I´ll be TOMORROW! 

 And in this day and age, why are people so critical? There are too many different lifestyles to keep up with them enough to judge! People meet people online and find love everyday...that's cool! Why is that conveyed as desperation? People actually CHOOSE to NOT have sex! That's cool! Why is that conveyed as loneliness?  

Leave people alone! This generation is so quick to speak on other peoples decisions and lifestyles that no one has time to focus on their own! Be YOU...live YOUR life...stop trying to dictate other people's. 

I've also been thinking about the fact that I try TOO hard to be the perfect friend. There isn't anything any of my friends could ask for that I wouldn't give. However, with all that I give to them, I honestly don't believe ANY of them would go to the extent for me that I would for them. That's not to say that they are bad friends. They aren't. I just think I invest too much of my time in my friends that I put myself in a position to be disappointed when they don't do the same. And they don't have to...but that's another part of my growing. Finding my own identity. Being able to invest the time I put into them into myself. Making myself happy first.

I can only live for me...

Those who love me will accept me and my imperfections...

Those who love me and care for me will support me and cease any judgments... 

Know that I am growing....Love me. Grow with me...

VIDEO PREMIERE: "Telephone" - Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce

AFTER FOREVER AND A DAY, LADY GAGA FINALLY RELEASED THE VIDEO FOR "TELEPHONE". IT FEATURES BEYONCE AND TYRESE AND ALL I CAN SAY IS IT'S AMAZING! I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT! IM NOT A GAGA FAN, BUT THIS VIDEO DEFF MADE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH HER! I WILL BE BUYING THE ALBUM TOMORROW!!! 

IT PREMIERED EARLY ONLINE BUT IS SET TO MAKE ITS TELEVISION PREMIERE TONIGHT ON E! @ 11:30....BUT UNTIL THEN, YOU KNOW YOU CAN CHECK IT OUT HERE!!! 

WHAT YA THINK?!?!

VIDEO PREMIERE: "LaLa (Means Love)" - Steph Jones

STEPH JONES! OH EM GEE, I LOVE THIS MAN! 

HE CAN DO ABSOLUTELY NO WRONG IN MY EYES!!

Anyway, tonight Steph released the video for "LaLa (Means Love)" which is my favorite song by him so excuse me if I'm a tad excited! (Just as excited as most of you were for that "Rude Boy" bullshit!) 

Anyone who has followed and continues to follow Steph's career will see that this video has his personality all over it. You must check it out! And if you haven't heard his latest mixtape "Gravity" you must immediately check it out @ www.datpiff.com 

Sooo without further ado, I want everyone check out the latest video from Steph Jones 

"LaLa (Means Love)"

VIDEO PREMIERE: Trey Songz - "Neighbors Know My Name"

Umm, hello? WHEN...and i do mean WHEN did Trey Songz become the FINEST man on the UNIVERSE?

He went through a total transformation....I think I'm having a moment right now....Wow....umm so yeah! 

Today Mr.Songz released the video for his latest single "Neighbors Know My Name". Each video gets better and better...and am I the only one who would have preferred to hear Trey sing "Daddy's Home"? I mean...Usher...you just don't have it anymore. Trey TOOK OVER! At any rate, check out the video and let me know what you think!!!

^^^Fantasies^^

Love? Pt. 1

We say we want a guy who is sweet and thoughtful...a guy who will take the time out of his day to say "Babe I miss you" or "Hope you are having a good day...", we say those things , those very simple things are what matter most. Yet and still, those are the men we find ourselves bored with.

 The ones we dismiss. Dismiss for a man who makes us an afterthought...why is that? Are we so fascinated by the challenge of turning a man into the "relationship type" and being "the one" who will be the priority instead of the afterthought that we are willing to miss the man who could possibly be "the one"? Do we even believe in that anymore?

Do we have "the one", the "love of my life"? Is that even a thought or are people so satisfied with the bare minimum of companionship that true and long lasting love has been irrelevant??

-- Sent from my Palm Prē

CHECK IT OUT: LisaRaye: The Real McCoy

The BADDEST woman in the world is finally ready to reclaim her role as television and movie's leading sex symbol. LISARAYE is hitting the small screen once more this year. After such an outstanding role in the hilarious sitcom All Of Us, the actress brings us "LisaRaye:The Real McCoy", a docu-reality series that will follow her as she gets her life and career back on track. Following a messy and publicly scandalous separation from her husband, we'll see her finalizing her divorce while showing viewers a side of her that we've never really seen. She'll show us how she plays the role of a mother to her teenage daughter and go beyond the surface of who people might still label "Diamond" (the character in which LisaRaye is most known for from the movie The Players Club) . 

Is she a bitch?

 Is she the diva that she's been rumored to be? 

What REALLY happened between her and her husband? 

How the hell did she and Lil Kim become friends?

Tune in April 8th on TvOne to find out! 

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Maybe I Was Kinda Wrong??

Most of what I write on here start with a conversation I've had with someone. Today, my sister and I were discussing a ex-boyfriend of mine. Cory. Cory was like my first serious involvement with a guy. I think I was around 14 then. Since then he and I have been through hell and back. Anyone who knows me, know exactly what I mean. Trying to be serious while living in different states, me finding out he dealt with another guy while we were dealing with each other etc. However, we always end up back in each others corner. We've moved past all the hurt and have come to the point where we're content with our relationship. We love each other but realistically speaking, we can't be together right now. I understand why, and I'm okay with that. That's one of the ways I know I've grown and matured in this new year. Which brings me to my actual topic...

Lately, I've had another person in my past on the brain. Honestly I don't know why. It hasn't been on a "I miss him", "I want him back.." tip, it'll just be in the most random of moments his name will pop into my head. Which has kinda got me to reflecting. Now this guy, he was actually a pretty cool guy. We'd been in each others lives for a few years. He meant alot to me at one point, enough that I wanted to be in a committed relationship with him. For one reason or another, it just couldn't happen. He wasn't ready, emotionally or mentally. I tried to be patient and understanding but I just couldn't. I couldn't understand it at all. Here I am, this guy who is totally devoted to you and wants nothing more than to be with you and show you what I great thing we could have and you're saying no? So with that being said, I just cut him off altogether. Everyone always asks what happened and I'll never say anything negative about him because he never gave me a reason to, he was a cool guy..but I decided that I wouldn't settle for any less than I wanted. I wanted a relationship, he didn't. I think my feelings for him were too deep to claim  the "just friends" bit, so what else could I do but completely remove myself from his life? 

So now in dealing with Cory and being okay with the way things are with him, I'm like why couldn't I have done the same with this other guy? Why did I completely burn that bridge? I think my mentality was like "well if I can't have this than I want nothing from you at all...", which is horrible because he was a good friend. Always supportive, always trustworthy, always comforting. As I've stated, he was a truly great guy. It sucks that I couldn't allow myself to support him in getting his mental and emotional together when he probably needed it. It sucks that at a time where I could have probably used his support, I didn't have it. But who can I blame? 

Now, was I wrong? I mean, I shouldn't settle for anything less than what I want. I feel like that's what I was doing with him. It was like I couldn't have the relationship I wanted to have with him so I settled for what he was giving me to just have SOMETHING. And it shouldn't be that way...but at the same time, did I ruin a perfectly good friendship because I wanted to be selfish and couldn't be understanding? 

Tell me.....

VIDEO PREMIERE: "Everything To Me" - Monica

R&B singer Monica released the video to the song "Everything To Me" today. The track is off Monica's upcoming "Still Standing" album. I'm still not crazy about the song but it's growing on me. The video however is really nice. It suits Monica well and she looks stunning. I'm really excited for the album being as though I've always loved Monica, I just hope there's more cause I was kind of bored with this track.

Check Out The Video Though! 

Be Sure To Pick Up "Still Standing" On March 23rd. 

ALBUM REVIEW: KEKE WYATT - WHO KNEW?

Songstress KeKe Wyatt has finally released her highly anticipated sophomore album "Who Knew?" today. After what seemed to be the longest transition ever, Ms. Wyatt has returned to give all her fans the amazing music they look forward to hearing form her. 

Each song is filled with emotion only to be accompanied by the beautiful and incomparable vocals of KeKe. While "Soul Sista" is still on my top 5 favorite albums ever, I will definitely say that this album truly shows her growth as an artist. She is no longer the "duet girl" who sang with Avant and had him all up and through her first album. This time it's all KeKe and it's absolutely amazing.

The album starts off with the title track and lead single "Who Knew?", in which KeKe speaks on an unexpected love. This is the perfect opening to the album and a classic reintroduction to people who may have been like "KeKe Wyatt? Yeah I think I remember her...", listening to this song, you have no choice but to remember this young lady. 

The second track is my favorite on the entire album. "Never Do It Again" proves more and more everytime you listen to it why KeKe Wyatt is such a phenomenal artist. KeKe sings about realizing she messed up with her man and knowing she has to fix it and change in order to keep her relationship tight. Other than on Tamia's "Smile", I don't think I ever felt so much passion and raw emotion on a song.

CHECK IT OUT !!

Got Me One

Who Knew?

Weakest

One that's sure to be a fan favorite is "Without You", it's a smooth ballad kinda reminscent of  her song "Call On Me" or even "Push Me Away"...it's a great track but for some reason it's nothing totally amazing to me. 

Now I love KeKe Wyatt so I'm sure you all are expecting me to say this album is 100% perfect. No. There are some places where she fell short. One of those places being in her cover of the song "Peace On Earth". I just don't like it. I can't get into it and it seems to inconsistent with the overall tone of the album. "I can't even breath without you..." to "How can we have peace on earth...", What?  It just throws me off and I'll even go as far to say I'm slightly disappointed with her vocals on this particular track. She could have done more. 

Also, this track "Gettin It". KeKe? Honey...No. It's another one of those tracks that just doesn't fit. The entire album  is  full of beautiful ballads and all of a sudden it's kinda...hood? Anyone who has or has heard her first album "Soul Sista" will remember thinking the same exact thing when the song "Bad Boy" came on. It reminds me of something Fantasia would have done on her second album. Extremely similiar to "Hood Boy" or even LeToya Luckett's "Gangsta Grillz". Although it's one of those silly songs that you'll find caught in your head...it should NOT have been included on the album. I find myself laughing everytime it comes on.

Overall, this album was a solid sophomore attempt.  Definitely one for the real fans and anyone who enjoys REAL vocalists. I can't see myself rushing home to listen to it after hearing it once or twice but you won't be disappointed.  I'd give it a 8/10. 

I'm Not Gay Anymore....Thank God!!!

 I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine this morning and we were discussing a former classmate who claims to have been "cured" of his homosexuality by God. Now this topic has been argued before time and time again but I never really paid it any attention until I was talking about it today. And I'm well aware that I'm about to piss off some people but oh well...you are more than welcome to click that "X" in the upper right hand corner.

Now the only reason this topic is even relevent to me is because I've dated guys who have either claimed God saved them after we stopped dating or blamed me because once I came into the picture, I "corrupted" them! I don't know how I feel about either claims. Like was dealing with me so difficult that you thought it'd be easier to get some pussy?

I will admit, the guy who I corrupted...I did it on purpose. Lol. He told me he was bisexual before but God had helped him rid himself of those  "demons", and for years he fought me but one day he finally stepped out of denial and we ended up dating.

My question however is, are you really serious? I'm sorry but I just don't believe in it. But let me clarify, I am in no way trying to challenge or doubt the power of God. I have my own personal faith and relationship with my creator and it's very strong but as far as I'm concerned, God made you the way he intended for you to be. Do NOT question his judgement and decisions. You're own personal issues with your sexuality is just that. Don't say God doesn't want you to be gay or he doesn't love you if you are a homosexual. That just feeds into the horrible discrimination that the gay community has faced forever and in my opinion, it gives God a bad name. Don't do that because you are uncomfortable with what you see as a "demon".

Which leads me to question those people who say God "cured" them. Now the guys I dated who dealt with this situation, have both gone on to dating men again...so were they cured? Or was it their own personal self will that helped them supress their attraction and prevent them from acting on their temptations and impulses? I'm gonna say that was it.

What do you guys think?

VIDEO PREMIERES: Mariah Carey- "Up Out My Face" & "Angels Cry"

Finally Finally Finally!

The video premieres for Mariah Carey's latest singles have finally come!

The first one being one of my faves "Up Out My Face". The song features hip-hop It girl Nicki Minaj. I'm not crazy about the remix but I like the video and it has my boy B.Scott in it so I'm happy!

The other is "Angel's Cry" featuring my baby Ne-Yo!! I think I'm more excited about anything new from him than I am for the actual video. But it's cool. The song is great and the video is cute too! It reminds me of the "One Sweet Day" video back in the day.

 Check em out!!! And be sure to get Mariah's remix album coming out in March!

NEW MUSIC : Christina Aguilera - "Spotlight"

With the upcoming April release of her fifth studio album "Bionic", Christina Aguilera is definitely someone who I've been waiting to hear new music from! So naturally, I was elated to listen to the new track "Spotlight" leaked today. It's been said that the track will be on the album but I doubt it. It's off the soundtrack to her new movie "Burlesque" in which she co-stars with singer/actress Cher.

So as always, check it out and let know what ya think!!